I AM

 

“God said to Moses, "'I am who I am.'”

  — Exo 3:14 (NIV)

Here we go again, back in the spiral of anxiety. Tomorrow knocks on my door every night and tells me that it is going to crush me alive. Fear has built a little cottage in my heart uninvited. My mind beats as if it was my heart. Or is it my heart that is beating with my mind?

A Bread, a Light, a Door. That is what I need here. Food that comes from heaven, a Manna that I will receive tomorrow that I wouldn't have to labor for. What I need is a light that reveals the great unknown and a door of passage to see through the next chapter. 

A Shepherd, a resurrection and a life, a way and truth. That is what I need. Someone to lead me through the night, somebody that reminds me that I am alive even when I am dying. I would need to know the path and the fact of it to carry on. 

And of course, a Vine steam which I would be attached to. What I need is dependence on someone who can provide for a branch like me, and not independence that leaves me lonely. 

What I need to pack for the future is: The Great I AM. He who was there before, who is present today and holds tomorrow in his hands. He defeated the unknown before it even started. Is anyone in need of that?